Revival of my insidemeizan blog

Hye everybody (well,if there is 'anybody' reading this :P ) . This blog has been on hiatus, or idle for a very long time. More than 5 month. Its all because of my lack of ability to properly divide my time between my personal life, my studies, and my blog. Another reason for the hiatus is to prevent me from posting useless entry just for the sake of keeping it 'alive'. So, it better off dead rather than have tons of meaningless entry.

The reason why I refrain from posting useless entry, also the main reason why I start blogging, is because I want people who read my blog, gain something from it. By posting things that meaningful, that is not just some chit chat and bitching, I hope I can help other people 'see' things that they cannot 'see'. Realize the what we unable to realize by looking things in different points of view and perspective, thus widen one's thought and mind.

Somehow, recently, I gained back the interest of 'blogging', again. Although I dont know whether I can keep it update, especially when I go back to my campus on July, but I will try my best. My resolution is harder this time.

So, for anybody, that already read my blog or just start, hopefully you guys can give me support by giving comments and opinion on whatever issue in my post. It means a lot to me. Owh.and for the one just start reading my blog, I will use english in my post, but you guys can comment even in bahasa. I dont mind. I did this for the sake of making it more general and 'international' lol, and for me to improve my english proficiency. I'm still leaning lol :P

Thats all for now. Thanks you.

Forgive me Michael....

He's dead.We all know.

I am one of the people thinks he was bad,evil,pedophilia.

But I was wrong.As a performer alone,he is unrivaled legend.As a human,he was a lot better than what media been shitting about.Do ur homework,I've done mine.U get what I mean.

He has a bad childhood, somehow it makes me feel close to him coz at least we share something in common.

I'm not his fan,not after been digging bout the truth,after been watching his past show,just 3 hours,enough to make me cry and feel like there was a big pit in my stomach,they call it,"REGRETS"

I shamed of myself for believing the media.I feel like im covered in cow shit.

My mom believe in him till the end,while I realized how great he is after he already died for a week.

I know he cant hear me,but I'm just sorry,so sorry.He may be not perfect,but he never deserve whatever people done to him.He maybe not an angel,but he aint no devil.He far better than most of us.

I love him,not as a fan,but as a fellow human.He far better than me.

This feelings of regrets would never go off,not in the near future.

I am so,so sorry........

Al-Fatihah

Yesterday,my schoolmate,Rozafiq's mother had passed away because of stroke.She passed away around 11.00 a.m.I hope and plead all of us to recite surah Al-Fatihah for the deceased.Hopefully,she will rest together with the other righteous mukmins.

[actually I was planning on posting this yesterday but somehow it slip my mind.I'm sorry.....]

My First Award!!

ok...a little nervous,coz just a month create a blog,then got my first award.My god!!

Thx a lot to CAPIQA for this award.It means a lot.I hope someday I can treat u someting,if we have a chance to meet :D (seriously,this is a promise)

Recap on Love or Not??!!

Ok,the reason why I'm triggered to wrote the Love or Not??!! is because I had a crisis with my girl,not the first time,just that its getting worst.She kinda obsessed with the "if u love someone,let him go" principle.Everytime she makes a mistake or made me mad,then she start spouting stuff like,"we're finished","lets end this".

When I let her cool her head down,ask her again,she said that she sad that she cant be the best for me,so she deciding to let me go,and find other girl,better girl.Seriously,I even mad when I hear that.

For me,if u love somebody,you gonna work hard to be the best for her/him,change urself if u need to.Throw away all the bad habit and attitude.Surely it can be achieved as long as u love her/him.If u cant or fail,that just proof that udint love her/him.There is no such thing as "little love" and "lots of love".Its either love or no love.When you love someone,it can be confirm by how much u would go for him/her,how much you would change ur old and bad self,how hard would you convinced her/him to never let you go when u made a mistakes.

That why it is possible to be the best for our love one,no matter how imperfect we are,as long we have love.

There is no such thing as "if u love someone,let him go".that just shit spout by somebody who gonna find new guy/girl to hooked up.When u love someone,u just never let her/him go,because that's what love is.Other than that,just hypocrite and self-centeredness.

Somehow,she can accept that after almost 2 years trying to put that simple concept inside her head.Just too hard-headed....

My Own Room...at last

Ok.The story is I have a 2 storey house,new house.My father bought it on 2004.

But I never have my own room.As my cousin used to lived with me because their parents are away in UK,working for 4 years.Apparently I study in a boarding school,got hostel,so my parent thought that I dont really need my own room.Just used the living room.

For 4 years I have to sleep if front of the television,and just 3 metres away from the front door.Now,I recently finished college and my cousins are back with their parents,now I can have my own room.

I set up my aged-but-still-looks-good-like-harrison-ford playstation 2,cheap lcd television on a desk.While next to it I set up a shelf,on top of it was my Altec Lansing 2.1 speaker and on the lower level was my comics collection,not all but the most recent one.I set up my bed with my favourite-since-childhood blanket.

All nice and smooth.

But when I look at the speaker,something come across my mind."How can I use this speaker?I dont have my Ipod anymore".....

That was the moment the pain of losing my Ipod struck my heart ragingly,make me slump back on my chair....quitely...weeping..in my heart.....